I Had This Dream

Damn, I had this dream last week that really messed with my mind.  Along with all the other weird things in my life, my dreams can be pretty prophetic or very interesting.  I have always been one to try to and analyze my dreams and the dreams of others.  I actually have kept written journals about dreams I have had over the years.  I can probably post about dreams that I have had for the next two years and they would just blow you away.  Anyway those books are boxed up somewhere in storage and I'm probably better off not dredging up some of what a lot of those dreams have to offer.

Anyway this dream I am talking about, I killed someone in it.  However it was more self-defense than premeditation.  In the dream someone broke into my home, I was in bed asleep in the dream.  I woke to a very loud noise and immediately (keep in mind this all the dream state) woke up and got out of bed and rushed to the front door.  It was a bald menacing man with a medium build, t-shirt, jeans, and he had a weapon of some kind in his hand (I couldn't tell what it was).  Next thing, we are in my living room face to face and I start hitting him with a crow bar in the head but nothing is happening to him, it was like I was hitting a piece of steel, so I started to get concerned because I kept hitting this guy and hitting this guy and nothing was happening to him.  So then I hit him in the thigh and suddenly he seemed like it hurt him, then I hit him again in the knee and seemed to hurt him, so I hit him in every part of his leg and hip and it seemed like it was effecting him and starting to injure him.  I finally went to the head again and it finally seemed like I was hurting him, in the dream I was bit scared but not completely frightened, I was more scared for my family in the dream than I was for myself.  So I just hitting him all over the body while he was standing there in front of me in the dream with crowbar and little by little he started to go down.  Finally the crowbar started to work the way it would REALLY work if I hit a man for real with a crowbar, in a matter of a few more hits this man was dead and severely beaten and bloodied on my living room floor.  I was breathing heavily standing over him looking at him and then looking at the crowbar.  Then I woke suddenly and realized I had been dreaming and I was a bit shaken since I had never killed anyone in a dream before.  The dream was very real to me at the time and I actually went to check on my two-year old to see if he was okay and then walked out into the living room to see if everything was fine there.

Several things, I don't own a crowbar and haven't touched tools in a long time, recently there have been home invasions in the next county over and just a couple of weeks ago the home invasions have moved into our county (I became concerned about this), and I am still a bit on edge about that dream.  I normally can break down a dream but this one had me rattled.  I have a dream dictionary that I consult sometimes but dream dictionaries aren't something you should swear by and most times can be wrong.  So just for the hell of it, I consulted one that I found on the Internet and saw two interpretations.  One, is some heavy stress that may cause me to lose my temper along with some deep anger issues that might need to be resolved.  The other is some old habits are about to die and I am about to move onto something bigger and better for my life.  Lastly, there might be some issues directed towards the person in the dream, well I don't know any men that fit the description of the invader in my dream.

Well I don't know what to think of any of those but ironically I had at the same time decided to get back to my diet that my dietitian put me on last year--And the deep anger stuff, well you only need to read my blog to know maybe I might need to sit down with a someone  professionally and root out some of that stuff I have dealt with over the years.  Who knows, maybe its nothing.  I guess it felt a little better to air out that dream...........ehhhhhh not really.  We'll see.  I am contemplating being "ready" for a home invader though.

Comments

[kathi]

My interpretation: there is something (a situation, a person, a conflict...) that is in your life that isn't responding to the way you're handling it. You need to come at it from a different direction and you'll conquer it.

[SmileDragon]

I agree with Kathi. I think there is something serious in your life that you are dealing with and you have been coming at it the wrong way. You need to address the foundation of the problem (legs) before you can resolve it.

[BlackOps]

Kathi,
Hmmm...very enlightening, thats pretty good interpretation. I will look deeper into me for that one.

Smiles,
You too as well. Very interesting....hell, who knew?

[LL]

For months after our bike was stolen in FL, I would have dreams about hearing the thieves and holding them at gunpoint until the cops came. I'd be prepared for a home invader too.

[Joann]

It's weird how you remember some dreams in detail and some you just forget although you try to remember. I checked out my book and it has the same thing on "Killing", but the meaning for "Fight"- The baskic meaing in a dream of fighting is change.

[BlackOps]

LL,
Damn, I think I have quite a few of those haunting type dreams myself.

Joann,
Exactly! I had a dream last night and I couldnt a remember the slightest detail, the one in my post I had last week and I can remember it like it was 5 minutes ago. Thanks for the input.

[Deb]

I was once told that dreams are never what they seem to mean----it usually signifies something totally different going on in your life.

BUT...the other night I had a dream that a toilet was overflowing- and when I went to my sister's party the other night------her toilet overflowed the way I dreamed it. Weird. I get dreams like that all the time. I hope I dream of numbers later tonight!

Great post!

[BlackOps]

Deb,
I have those type of dreams as well. Its almost deja vu in a way. I hope you dream those numbers too and maybe you might remember that I was going to bring you those ice cubes you needed for your vodka ;)

[Kyuball]

It's amazing how our dreams evolve as we grow older. When I was young, I used to have nightmares...we probably all did...and they were usually about something bad happening to me, phyiscally and mentally.

Now that I have a family, my "bad" dreams are centered around protecting them. Usually, I come out on top of these situations. I learned several years ago to gain some control of my dreams...don't ask me how, but I can bring myself to a more lucid state and recognize that it's just a dream and I flip it. I change the circumstances.

At any rate, I still wake up with anxiety and I go and check on my son.

[BlackOps]

Kyu,
Yes, I cant tell you how many dreams I have had where its no longer me but now me and the clan. I have often read about the lucid state "technic" but I have not been able to do it yet. I have had the floating in the air thing happen to me several times but havent been to get wake myself from it.